Our family was blessed by an unusually warm (for the Canadian prairies) holiday season. The highway
between home and college was safe. Just two days ago (January 14) our warm chinook wind disappeared and we are sitting a -24º C in the grip of an Arctic low. During the month since I last posted I have been able to read through two of Althea Hayton's books; A Silent Cry and Wombtwin Survivors, and I have finally completed the 30 healing steps in her e-book. My turning point came on January 7 when I realized what the issues I had with my mother meant - I had assigned her the role of filling the relationship gap left by (Sam and Jack) my wombmates!! What a freeing realization; our relationship was painful because I expected her to fill needs that she could not fill. She did love me; she did take care of me. My resentment lifted, Mom has been gone 20 years,. Quoting Althea: I realized "the letting go of a specific form of relationship that has always seemed to be required in order for you to feel whole and live life to the full." I can now "reclaim all my psychological space; I can use my talents in the mainstream of life." the wonderful last chapter in Wombtwin Survivors, chapter 29 -Awakening from the Dream, put it all together for me. Thank-you Althea!
I am now charting new territory; rapidly learning to recognize weak BETA responses and replace them with ALPHA power, my own. It is exhilarating and frightening at the same time. Adventures ahead!
Any thoughts?
Tuesday, 17 January 2012
Friday, 16 December 2011
Wondering how to reach....
Secember 16, 2011
It has been a while since I have written. I am wondering how to reach more wombtwin survivors
in Canada. I would love to dialogue with others. Rather feeling some of that old familiar loneliness; I have ordered two of Althea Hayton's books. I am looking forward to the reading, maybe they will inspire ideas.
Right now I wish anyone reading my words
a Merry Christmas providing lots of warm fuzzy memories. Here is my gift to you.
It has been a while since I have written. I am wondering how to reach more wombtwin survivors
in Canada. I would love to dialogue with others. Rather feeling some of that old familiar loneliness; I have ordered two of Althea Hayton's books. I am looking forward to the reading, maybe they will inspire ideas.
Right now I wish anyone reading my words
a Merry Christmas providing lots of warm fuzzy memories. Here is my gift to you.
Christmas Thoughts
from Linda Johnson
December 2011
Old is the knowledge of Jesus birth,
Old are the reasons He came to the earth.
Gone are the stable and manger bed,
Gone are the animals guarding His head.
Gone are the shepherds and angels above,
Gone is the baby but strong is his love.
Renewed is this knowledge for people today,
Renewed are the reasons we kneel to pray,
Vast is the love of our God for each one,
Believing the story of the birth of His Son.
Vast is the faith and the joy we can share,
Vast is the surety we live in His care.
Now is the time for showing by living
Our faith in our Master by serving and giving,
Now is the season we show God the way
We honor Lord Jesus in our lives today.
Now is the time to make old knowledge new,
Vast is the reach of a story that is true.
Tuesday, 8 November 2011
one more connection
November 8, 2011
I read a wombtwin post, during an internet ramble the other day, in which the
person indicated the possibility of women loosing their teeth because of fetus
reabsorption ?? It rang one more loud bell for me, my mother got false teeth shortly
after I was born...., curious connection.
Any thoughts.
Linda
I read a wombtwin post, during an internet ramble the other day, in which the
person indicated the possibility of women loosing their teeth because of fetus
reabsorption ?? It rang one more loud bell for me, my mother got false teeth shortly
after I was born...., curious connection.
Any thoughts.
Linda
Friday, 4 November 2011
Womb Twin Canada: October 26 already? How can life pass so quickly? ...
Womb Twin Canada: October 26 already? How can life pass so quickly? ...: October 26 already? How can life pass so quickly? I finally came face to face with step 21 in Althea's book - separation and letting go. it ...
Discovering and Freeing the Hidden Beliefs Hi Linda Love your description of how the wind lifted the ashes from the shells and scattered them in the winds. What a wonderfully freeing visual. Bringing our issues that originated in the womb to the surface is powerful and deep work, and can make huge differences in our lives. Often afterwards we find we are no longer reactive to issues that we would have been upset about before. I love it when I see that some of my 'buttons' are no longer active and that I can respond naturally! Kalil Gibran said "May the winds of the heavens dance between us." (womb survivors). Good work. Diannah |
Monday, 31 October 2011
"You will become what you think about'
I recently listened to an Earl Nightingale recording called "You will become what you think about."
It spoke loudly to my efforts to change my beta victim thinking to alpha strength thinking. I am endeavoring to recognize and think only truth about myself. This recording was a good reality check, I
recommend it ...
Linda Johnson
It spoke loudly to my efforts to change my beta victim thinking to alpha strength thinking. I am endeavoring to recognize and think only truth about myself. This recording was a good reality check, I
recommend it ...
Linda Johnson
Wednesday, 26 October 2011
October 26 already? How can life pass so quickly? I finally came face to face with step 21 in Althea's book - separation and letting go. it has taken me some weeks of contemplating what this might look lie; suddenly it was time. I had recognized and listed my negative habits/experiences on Slips of paper:blackhole-withdrawal, assumed helplessness, survivor guilt,self-sabotage,clutter examples,
And I wanted to burn them. I went outside to the table on the back deck where I left
My collection of clam shells from summer holiday. I put each slip of paper in the shell
And lit a match and watched it burn. I wrote positive alternatives -love, friends, capable, accepting, accept only truth, etc. On the wooden pegs of the wind chime above my head.
I ended up with two shells full of ashes. I carefully held one over the other and
Walked them to our woodpile in the field and tossed the shells and had the surprising
Satisfaction of watching the ashes blow away in the breeze! I am amazed at how therapeutic
This was!
Now I am realizing there is not an old me to return to,I must internalize a new psychological
Profile, a new me...the hardest part of this journey.
Linda
And I wanted to burn them. I went outside to the table on the back deck where I left
My collection of clam shells from summer holiday. I put each slip of paper in the shell
And lit a match and watched it burn. I wrote positive alternatives -love, friends, capable, accepting, accept only truth, etc. On the wooden pegs of the wind chime above my head.
I ended up with two shells full of ashes. I carefully held one over the other and
Walked them to our woodpile in the field and tossed the shells and had the surprising
Satisfaction of watching the ashes blow away in the breeze! I am amazed at how therapeutic
This was!
Now I am realizing there is not an old me to return to,I must internalize a new psychological
Profile, a new me...the hardest part of this journey.
Linda
Monday, 17 October 2011
A Healing Path for Wombtwin Survivors
It is October 17, it was -3º C when we got up this morning. The wind is urging the leaves off the trees.
I live on the Canadian prairie; when the leaves are gone and snow comes the land is huge and lonely and white as far as the eye can see. This winter will be the first one in my 58 years in which I will carry an
understanding of my wombtwin loss and "the psycic fall out" (thanks, Ed) that I carried all my life.
Althea Hayton's e-book, "A Healing Path for Wombtwin Survivors"is the guide I am following in my astonishing journey. It is an inspired and remarkable document reflecting light on a path I could not even image a few short months ago. I thank her for her work and encourage any and all to take advantage of it.
I live on the Canadian prairie; when the leaves are gone and snow comes the land is huge and lonely and white as far as the eye can see. This winter will be the first one in my 58 years in which I will carry an
understanding of my wombtwin loss and "the psycic fall out" (thanks, Ed) that I carried all my life.
Althea Hayton's e-book, "A Healing Path for Wombtwin Survivors"is the guide I am following in my astonishing journey. It is an inspired and remarkable document reflecting light on a path I could not even image a few short months ago. I thank her for her work and encourage any and all to take advantage of it.
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