October 26 already? How can life pass so quickly? I finally came face to face with step 21 in Althea's book - separation and letting go. it has taken me some weeks of contemplating what this might look lie; suddenly it was time. I had recognized and listed my negative habits/experiences on Slips of paper:blackhole-withdrawal, assumed helplessness, survivor guilt,self-sabotage,clutter examples,
And I wanted to burn them. I went outside to the table on the back deck where I left
My collection of clam shells from summer holiday. I put each slip of paper in the shell
And lit a match and watched it burn. I wrote positive alternatives -love, friends, capable, accepting, accept only truth, etc. On the wooden pegs of the wind chime above my head.
I ended up with two shells full of ashes. I carefully held one over the other and
Walked them to our woodpile in the field and tossed the shells and had the surprising
Satisfaction of watching the ashes blow away in the breeze! I am amazed at how therapeutic
This was!
Now I am realizing there is not an old me to return to,I must internalize a new psychological
Profile, a new me...the hardest part of this journey.
Linda